I have struggled with what I wanted to post today. Not wanting to add insult to injury, but feeling I had to articulate something. This is such a painful, fearful, confusing time for everyone. On every subject these days a hard line has been drawn and you have to be on one side or the other.
To my friends of color, I love you. You know that.
I have been struggling with ways to better support my Black and Brown friends. My friend Jill has posted some great sources and is helping with information about better educating ourselves. To help u shear a live as better members if our community.
I went to church this morning (Via computer) and our pastor said, wouldn’t it be nice if we all understood each other. If we all spoke the same language and used the same words. There IS a common language. There are words for us all to understand each other. That language is God’s language of love. If we speak with love, with our hearts, and listen the same way, we CAN understand one another.
Now, I’m not going to preach to you. If you know me at all, you will know God and I still have a few things to work out between us. But I took our pastor’s words to heart, and thought about my own experience just yesterday at Home Depot.
Everyone was social distancing in line, except the man behind me. He insisted on standing right behind me. Right there on my heels. He was wearing a mask, so that was good, but he was too damned close. First I was irritated, and as we moved up in line, downright uncomfortable. Finally I turned and sharply reminded him that social distancing was 6’ and asked him to please step back.
He did. Way back.
The line moved quickly and when I glanced back, he was no where near us. I had spoken sharply. I needed to apologize, but he was gone. My own actions continued to nag at me. This morning I realized, had I spoken to him out of love, my tone would not have offended. A gentle reminder was probably all that was necessary. But, I had spoken out of fear, and irritation, and my tone was not loving, probably more like accusing or angry.
Welcome to a whole new world and way of life for many of us. For of 85,000 Americans life have ended due to Covid-19.
We are well, and continue to be super cautious in our daily activities and when we are away from home.
I promise to write more later tonight. I have to take a deep breath and figure out where this blog is headed now. Lots has changed in my life since I last wrote, so direction (any direction) is necessary.
1. Still not brave enough to face your attacker.
2. Fear of being dismissed.
3. Thinking a he said/she said will have the same result as it did all those years ago.
4. Self esteem destroyed by attacker.
5. Fear that others that you love will defend attacker, not you.
6. Thinking it was somehow your fault to start with.
The steroids they gave me for my hips are really doing a number on my emotional health. It’s been a wreck of a week, and still is.
So I signed up at Clay Madsen because they have a nice pool and I want to do some swimming so that I can do some small triathlons this summer. Since I can’t walk right now I went to the gym tonight and swim 400 yards.
Now I know 400 yards it’s nothing to most of you, but it’s a start and I feel better getting out and doing something!
So the tendonitis in my left foot turned out to be a stress fracture.
I went to get my hip injections for bursitis that I get every 3 or 4 months and I asked him the doctor if he would inject my foot because I couldn’t get past the tendonitis causing a lot of pain and I have a marathon in 2 weeks, he asked if he could x-ray it. At first I told him no but he convinced me it was the right thing to do so the X-ray we went.
Stress fracture. I have two weeks in the boot and 9 days until Austin marathon. My spouse asked me to change the full to 1/2 and the doctor said that I could attempt to walk it and pain would be my gide.
The Wellness Digest Adductor Magnus Muscle: Groin, Pelvic and Thigh Pain
I share this picture because it describes best the recent pain I have been having. This link gives you a lot of info about it.
Holy Moly, this site has exactly what I needed! I’m glad I found the info here, I was trying to imagine the doctor visit. “Doc, I don’t know what I’ve done, but it hurts HERE!” The gesturing alone would be a complete embarrassment, lol!
I have been working my marathon training program since August, but due to muscle atrophy, I’m a very slow study. I’m putting in the work with 20-25 miles a week walking/running, but it’s slow hard work.
One of my greatest deficiencies are hills. I can keep up with my walking group on the downhill and flat, but the hills slow me to a crawl every time. To help improve, I have added stairs to my daily rituals. We have a single flight in my office building so I started this week climbing them many times a day. I noticed a few days ago my thighs were getting really sore. I didn’t think much of it, something always huts on my body, until this morning my groin was sore too. After a little searching, The Wellness Digest helped me figure it out!
So, I’m going to try these YouTube solutions to strengthening my Adductor Magnus!!!
I also realized I felt more comfortable walking in my leggings this week. It’s because compression they provide help to support the adductor magnus.
I am going to be pushing this pretty hard, as I only have 3 weeks training left before the taper!
Time to play catch-up on my posting.
Holidays were good with great family and wonderful friends!
Got off Keto a bit, but back on now!
The races are getting closer. I am walk/running every day now. At least 2 miles, at most 6 during the week. Weekend training still with USA Fit Walking Program and still loving it!
I started a Streak on January 3rd to walk/run every day without fail.
The streak is alive!!
Trying to figure out nutrition for the long hall. We are talking 7 hours on the road on race day! Keto athletes insist I only need to trickle carbs during the race, so I am going to try that this weekend for my 14-mile training run.
They have recommended Ucan before the race. (Ucan is expensive, so I am trying a homemade recipe I found on the net. Claire at The Planted Runner posted a recipe I’m going to try instead of the UCan. I’m calling it FauxCan)
This is my current plan:
- Normal Keto meals Thursday or Friday.
- Normal BPC on the way to the meeting-up area.
- For this weekends 14 miler, I’m mixing one pre-run FauxCan and one for 2 hours in. The run should be no more than 4 hours or faster. I’m also making deluded electrolyte (Nuun) for my Hydration pack instead of water. (2 Nuun in 2 liters)
- I will pack a few Quest Hero bars for “food”
- The last hat trick (and the strangest to me) is Smarties. Bought a bag this morning.
- Advice from another keto runner, Pack Gels just in case. (Thanks Sharon!)
Marathon Race Day:
- Normal Keto meals Friday and Saturday.
- Normal BPC on the way to the meet-up area.
- Sunday morning drink – FauxCan. For the race, I’m mixing 3 bottles. One pre-race, one 2.5 hours in, one 5 hours in. (If you have any feedback on this, please speak up!)
- Quest Hero bars for “food”
- Roctane for the second half.
I think this concludes food prep for long runs and race day.